Monday, December 15, 2008

18. The Regret

The only thing Saqi regretted as he stepped outside and walked along was that he couldn’t make Sadia understand things the right way as he would have done, had this unexpected event not happened. And there would have been loads of questions in her mind too, which due to this awful game of time, left unanswered. The regret was that even Sadia started to blame Saqi for everything that happened. Without even asking anything, all blames were put on Saqi for no reason. It was all right for others to have reacted in whatever way they wanted as they didn’t know Saqi as a person; but it really shocked Saqi, that even Sadia, knowing everything, too reacted against him after that incident and told Saqi to never contact her again. Saqi couldn’t even speak a word to her. It was the most unexpected thing for him that Sadia would react in such a way. He couldn’t comprehend as to what he did to have hated by her like that. There could have been hundreds of reasons but then Saqi thought that he should respect it if she doesn’t want to talk to him. There was no point to compel Sadia to listen that every word he spoke was truth if she really was not ready to keep up their friendship. Moreover she very well knew Saqi as a person, so she herself should have understood the situation and the reason for Saqi to react that way at that moment of time. And even if she didn’t understand, she didn’t find it important to have at least talked about it even once and tried to sort out things. But what has to happen, happens; and everything that happens is for our own good. So taking this thought, he too didn’t mind if Sadia doesn’t want to talk to him or keep up their friendship if she is happy that way. All Saqi wanted was the best for her and to always see her happy, so he thought that let it be the way she wanted. But then that loss of such a respected and revered friendship really used to hurt him badly. He just wanted to speak out everything to at least ease out his heart. So he found it best to express himself this way.

7 comments:

Lena said...

All along Saqi has respected Sadia's feelings however much he doesn't feel the same. With this last post I am free to believe that Sadia just kept up her friendship with Saqi in the hope that he too would fall in love with her.
If she did love him as much as she said then she should at least once give him a chance to explain.
However hurt she may feel and even however little sence things may not make to her.
We can only understand others by listning to them.
Saqi has every reason to be hurt. He has done everything to protect Sadia and after swollowing his pride in order to protect her he has also lost her friendship.
Saqi has shown that he is a person full of respect for others.
I must however say that what I said in the begginning I must repeat... Saqi should have been far more clearer with Sadia about his feelings. He let himself be caught in a "web" where Sadia now is blamming him for everything... He counted on time to let him explain everything and time let him down.
Further more from what I see Saqi's friendship towards Sadia is far more stronger than Sadia's love towards Saqi... or is it the other way round I wonder???

dna said...

Be it with my hard feelings, i alwys wished they never met.. n now even after they hve, they will be livin the rest of their lives with nothin more than just a bitter memory.... this ws sure to happen and i m really sorry to say tht both of them r to blame for wht they r goin thru now.. its destiny's test tht they were put on to but sadly,they jsut cudnt make it thru...
ok i agree Saqi wanted to wait for the right moment to pour out everythin in front of Sadia which ws a huge mistake in itself...but wths wrong with Sadia...it ws all up to her...She cud hve saved the frenship but ...so insensible tht she cudnt understand the situation at all..dnt know wht to say...
its really hard to hold on to this perception only…coz I also believe….. love cant be completely replaced by frenship…theres no way tht sadia can take him jstu as a fren…She wnt be able to forget anythin or start a new life unless Saqi moves away. If I ws in her place..i too,wdnt be strong enough to give frenship a chance but I wd definitely listen to wht Saqi hd to say.

Dona said...

I feel that the situation caused Sadia to react like the way she did. The more she speaks to him, the more problems she would have faced back home if, by chance her family found that out. Though they had to sacrifice their friendship, maybe, in the long run, things may turn out to be better.

Huda said...

Hmmmmmm.....Regret Regret Regret offcourse u r regretting Saqi not because Sadia is blaming u but....

Saqiits enough now, stop hurting urself.Its better to accept that u too love Sadia, for how long will u disguise ur love as friendshstip.

I agree that ur intention is not to hurt feelings....yeah Feelings
Feelings of ur Parents
Feelings of Sadia
Feelings of all others

But what about ur feelings, who is there to think of u, and to be true, u r not letting them think about u by hiding ur feelings

But u know GOD knows everything what u both want

And trust GOD,HE will deffinately give u what is best for u and it may happen after several tests,may be packaged in a different manner than u expect.

Huda

Huda said...

Sadia to Saqi...

accha kiya jo karni shroo ki humse nafrat....
ahsas hai galati ka mujhe jo na ki tumse mohabbat....

Lekin majboor hai hum apne wade se....
Jo kiya aur nibhaya apne walidain se....

khud par Fakhr hai k dosron k liye kabhi bhi...
kar sakte hai koi bhi takleef Bardasht...

karenge dua hum hamesha k khush raho tum harwaqt...
tumhe bholne me kafi hai tumhari mujhse ye nafrat...

Jawed said...

neki kar dariya main daal .. this is for Saqi. I donno watevr might be the reason with Sadia, its unfair to have blamed Saqi without even claryfyin any thing.. she should have atleast contacted saqi on her own to sort out things if she really loved him so much.. i really dont see any love here. whether love or friendship, one should respect whtevr they have ...
even if its a bit.. dont know y ppl cant b happy with what they have .. here sadia with her love things actually ruined such a beautiful relationship...cant say any thing really ... just hope for the best.

Laiqa said...

it is unbelieveabble that Sadia will react in this way...
well now i conclude that she was just proceeding her relationship with Saqi just in the hope that he too would fall in love with her.
well Saqi respect her, its really nice...
well Sadia inspite of blaming Saqi should co-operate wid him...